Saturday, February 27, 2010

life are totally boring sometimes. especially when its without someone you love by your side or another thing might be when you dont have the "MONEY". i am not saying about all this materialistic thinking. i am saying about entertainment. you do not expect your life to be like, work-eat-sleep everyday right? of course sometimes you will feel like going for movie, kareaoke or maybe play games. but if we do not have the money, life would be like all dead. but if with money, you have your limitation of course. i didnt say that we have to spend it all. of course we have to save for future too. arghh.. you just have to make the right decision ok!!?? everything have their limitation.

time passes by so fast.. sometimes i wonder whether i did make a right choice. anyhow, i dont think i can turn back anymore because i dont think that everything thati have decide and do will make me feel regret. i thank god so much for helping me out whenever i want him.

working as a full timer is not easy. time doesnt wait and your performance must be revealed. if not then your gonna be a 'loser' or somehow lets put it to a better saying, a 'not good in work' person. i am scared because i am still under probation and all of this thing are like totally new for me. but i appreaciate the work and the people that been teaching me and giving me support. i am glad that they are so patient and i hope myself can give my best. next 2months will be the evaluation day and its all depends on my performance and feedback from my department people and my collegue. i hope this all will go well.

winks.. ** :D

Friday, February 19, 2010

CNY was awesome this year but very tired as i have not much days in hometown to go visit all my relatives and also friends.
its good to see my grandma and daddy again and also my siblings. i miss them very much..

as always, when i look at my grandpa's pictures that hanging up the wall above my piano, my tears still drop. i cant help it every time so sometimes i keep myself from looking at the picture. he is my best man that i ever had since i was born until he is gone. i didnt have any chance to do anything and to buy anything for him since he were here, because i did not have any income but now i do.

just to let you know grandpa that I LOVE YOU very much. i will never forget you. i hope that you can hear me say 'I LOVE YOU' this word and know how much i love you.